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Resolutions vs Intentions (or Veruca's fall cleaning blues)

I decided to update the look of my blog, a fall cleaning of sorts (I believe in spring & fall cleaning) Thoughts, comments, questions, concerns? Anyhow while looking through a few old entries I came upon this one: The New Year’s Resolutions…It speaks of setting intentions vs resolutions. That year (2011) I decided I was going with INTENTIONS, because while I intended to do a lot of those item – I was not quite sure I was resolved to do them. Um CLEARLY I wasn't because as I review the list I am getting mildly annoyed with myself, as you can see from my notes below, I didn't really get very far.

  • Seriously work on my flexibility. Saying SPLITS seems like an elusive goal, working on flexibility makes more sense to me. It’s something I can do that might actually get me to those elusive splits I took for granted in my youth UM - NOPE - NADA GOT NOWHERE WITH THIS ONE. I HAVE NO EXCUSE OTHER THAN I SUCK AT BEING DISCIPLINED TOWARDS THINGS I DON'T FIND FUN... GOING TO HEAD HOME TONIGHT AND START WORKING ON THE SPLITS.
  • Let go of toxic things, people, thoughts etc that weigh me down. Honestly this is probably a life long process but I really need to start being better at it. In the end the only one you are punishing or is suffering is yourself and while I know this, the process is not an easy one. THIS IS REALLY SOMETHING THAT NEEDS TO BE A LIFETIME PRACTICE AND WHILE I STILL HARBOR SOME ANGER ISSUES TOWARDS A FEW KEY PEOPLE I WILL SAY I AM GETTING MUCH BETTER AT THIS!
  • Get stronger! I think that if I was honest that this one would really be ”lose 20 pounds”. But I am trying to be positive Veruca, so I will not harp on weight and instead make a goal of strength. I do however believe with getting stronger there is an inevitable outcome of weight loss…how ever little or large that maybe. I AM STRONGER - YES SO THAT'S A WIN.  IF I COULD ADD A20 POUND LOSS TO THIS THAT WOULD BE EXCELLENT!
  • Take a vacation! A real vacation, somewhere out of the state for 5 whole days, with no doggy in tow and I must not think about work and not feel guilty about being away for 5 days! Clearly if I can’t leave my job for 5 days I am not being paid enough and quite honestly I am the only one who is making myself stay home. Work is FINE with me going on vacation…it’s just me. I always find more stuff I need to do or I let something get in the way. I need to get over this – this is a must for my sanity. HA VACATION YOU SAY - PLEASE VACATIONS ARE FOR CHUMPS (I WILL KEEP TELLING MYSELF THIS UNTIL I HAVE ENOUGH FREE TIME AND EXTRA $$ TO TAKE ONE)
  • Dance to my favorite songs, for an hour, at least once a week, by my self, at my studio, just for the sake of dancing. WELL AN HOUR MIGHT BE A STRETCH BUT I DO PLAY AROUND IN MY STUDIO BY MYSELF AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK (AND DOES CAR DANCING COUNT, I HOPE SO BECAUSE I CAR DANCE EVERY NIGHT WHEN I AM STUCK ON THE 405N)
  • Be a healthier, happier, less judgmental Veruca. Spend more time with my doggy outside, go biking once a week with my husband on our new Christmas bikes, spend more time at the beach this summer, work hard at my job and my studio but remember to enjoy the process a bit more and not worry so much about the outcome.  I AM GETTING THERE - NOT THERE YET BUT HONESTLY ISN'T THAT WHAT LIFE IS ABOUT?

So what have I learned from revisiting my "intentions". Clearly looking backwards isn't they way to go about life. Maybe I should just look at the now and towards the future, keep moving - like a shark always move forward. Not be so hard on myself and my "intentions".

I do still feel the need to come up with some actual concrete goals for 2014 but I'm thinking if I start them now I will have a little extra time towards them, so here we go...

  1. quit smoking
  2. work specifically on shoulder, hamstring & hip flexor flexibility
  3. lose 10-20 pounds
  4. work on my surfing
  5. take a vacation to Costa Rica (and do #4 above)
  6. pay down all credit card debt

With the best intentions,

-Love, 

 

The New Year's Resolutions...

It's coming upon that time of year...the time we all sit down and plan out our New Year's Resolutions - I hate the word resolution.  It seem so FINAL. One of the definitions of resolution is "the act of resolving or determining upon an action or course of action, method, procedure, etc." Just the word alone seems extremely harsh. This year I am going with INTENTIONS, because while I intend to do a lot of these item - I am not quite sure I am resolved to do them. I think this is a healthier way to look at what I want for myself in life. This year will be the year of me being kind to me. All of my "Intentions" seem to revolve around that theme. Don't get me wrong I'm going to try hard to reach all or some or most of these goals but I don't want to beat myself up next year at this time if I didn't achieve them, seems awfully counter productive! So while I am setting goals for myself I am thinking of each of these items as a multi step, learning process.

  1. Quit smoking...always #1 on my list and always elusive.  Part of this is because while I know it is the worst thing I can do - I really enjoy smoking! There I said it out loud in bold even. I am a smoker and I LOVE it! Worse yet I am a smoker with an aerial studio -  backwards I know. I know in order for me to quit I have to find a way to not love it. I have yet to figure this out but I am going to  try. It might be time to own up to the fact that I might need professional help in this department.
  2. Pay off all my credit card bills. This is one I could have done had I not opened a studio (YAY) so I while I doubt I will be able to pay them all off this year - I will at least work on whittling them down.
  3. Seriously work on my flexibility. Saying SPLITS seems like an elusive goal, working on flexibility makes more sense to me. It's something I can do that might actually get me to those elusive splits I took for granted in my youth ;)
  4. Let go of toxic things, people, thoughts etc that weigh me down. Honestly this is probably a life long process but I really need to start being better at it. In the end the only one you are punishing or is suffering is yourself and while I know this, the process is not an easy one.
  5. Get stronger! I think that if I was honest that this one would really be "lose 20 pounds". But I am trying to be positive Veruca, so I will not harp on weight and instead make a goal of strength. I do however believe with getting stronger there is an inevitable outcome of weight loss...how ever little or large that may  be.
  6. Take a vacation! A real vacation, somewhere out of the state for 5 whole days, with no doggy in tow and I must not think about work and not feel guilty about being away for 5 days! Clearly if I can't leave my job for 5 days I am not being paid enough and quite honestly I am the only one who is making myself stay home. Work is FINE with me going on vacation...it's just me. I always find more stuff I need to do or I let something get in the way. I need to get over this - this is a must for my sanity.
  7. Dance to my favorite songs, for an hour, at least once a week, by my self, at my studio, just for the sake of dancing.
  8. Be a healthier, happier, less judgmental Veruca. Spend more time with my doggy outside, go biking once a week with my husband on our new Christmas bikes, spend more time at the beach this summer, work hard at my job and my studio but remember to enjoy the process a bit more and not worry so much about the outcome.

Have you set your intentions for the new year? Do you even want to - lord knows I didn't, but I think if I can manage just a tiny bit of the above I will be in a great place for 2012.  Hopefully we all will!  Through out this new year we should also remember to be kind to our selves and always be thankful for who we are, where we have come from as well as where we want to be.

Here's hoping we all have a Very, Merry, Sane, Sexy, Fun-filled, Twirly, Strong, Perfect New Year!

-VB

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